charneus

Anything but mine...

In the morning, I'm leaving, making my way back to Cleveland... I love those words. Great song from Kenny Chesney. But, no... I'm happy here in Arkansas. Happy with my job, even though last night, a caller made me feel extremely stupid. Oh well. Life goes on, as I always say.

I don't know what to think of past events anymore. They don't even faze me, actually. The past is something I can't change, and some people still are afraid that I'm going to look back on their past and judge them. We all make mistakes. Sometimes, we don't learn from them. Sometimes, we do. It's those times that really matter. But who am I to judge a person based on what they did in the past? I've not been angelic, either. In fact, there were times when I faced the Devil and wondered whose side I'd come out on. Still, to this day, I'm my own independent person. Do I believe in God? Yes. Do I consider myself a Christian? Yes. However, I'm still my own person.

The weather is turning chilly - I guess that's to be expected in the wintertime. I find slight need for my heater, though. This morning, I had it on for about an hour. Maybe two. All I know is that I was freezing. It would be nice, though, to have a bed to actually sleep in. Maybe I would be warmer, and wouldn't have to worry about things. Plus, I can do so much more in bed than I can do on a couch... such as toss and turn and not worry about falling off.

I'm still working on getting a phone set up... I think I have to go use one of those budget phones, even though I'm not sure how that's going to work. Meh... Got everything but that phone. Definitely need it, though. Yesterday, Debbie was supposed to pick me up to go to work... told me she'd be there about 1:30... never showed, so I started walking to work at 1:55. I knew I was going to be late. It's a good thing that Keysha had to do some shopping before going to work. She pulled over and picked me up. Now she's picking me up today, as well, and will probably continue to do so. I just hope our schedules are identical next week.

I'll tell you one thing, though. The supervisors at work don't seem to know what they are talking about. I've proven two of them wrong so far, and that's pretty sad. I just follow the directions to the letter as stated in our ECC manuals, but they try to tell me it's still wrong. Go figure. I'll just assume I'm getting things right now, and ask someone else who is sitting next to me if I have any questions.

Well, the day is long, and the warmth of the house is beckoning me. While I'm here at the library, though, I'm going to pick up a couple of books and return the ones I've finished reading. Right now, I'm reading an old book - "Congo" by Michael Crichton. I've seen the movie, but I wanted to read the book... didn't realize that it was published in 1979. That book is older than I am... scary. I look back and see that a quarter of a century has passed... I'm going to be 26 in less than two months now. Where am I at? Working, single, and frankly, not caring about much in life except those who matter most to me.

So, without further ado, I must now bid you adieu.